It's easy to laugh about, but there is actually a dark truth behind this post that really hits home with me. When I was 14 and still a fundamentalist Christian, I used to keep a journal with prayers in it. I was going through some serious guilt about questioning my faith and my sexuality, and most of my "prayers" repeated these sentiments almost verbatim: "Please, take me back, I'm not good enough for you, but please forgive me, I know that you can change my life and I will surrender myself to you completely. I'm so worthless, please don't stop loving me..." etc.

Four years later, I started dating a guy I met through my stoner artist friends. I didn't particularly like him, but he was charismatic and very forward and I was sexually repressed. I think what attracted me most were his "morals" regarding monogamy, aka controlling jealous streak. He somehow convinced me that I was a totally disgusting, ignorant being and pretty soon I was repeating the same shit that I had written in my prayer journal to this guy. "Please, take me back, I'm not good enough for you, but please forgive me, I know that you can change my life and I will surrender myself to you completely. I'm so worthless, please don't stop loving me..."

Of course, the only reason he was able to fuck me over like this was because I already believed in my heart of hearts that I was a worthless sinner who needed "saving," not an intelligent young woman with big questions and a strong drive to seek the truth.

Edit: Even bigger mindfuck- I even showed him my journal and told him that it was troubling me that our relationship was repeating this pattern, and he attributed it to me being crazy and having issues. Typical.