I understand the feeling as not wanting to be under the same roof as it. I had that once after I really broke through. I was staring at the bag afterwards thinking what the fuck are you? You're "just little crystals" but holy fucking shit. Yeah dont snort the root bark haha. Ayahuasca is a totally different experience too. Antidepressants..? And I just smoked it a bunch? Idk I had been smoking weed forever and could always handle huge bong rips, I noticed my lungs weren't like others. But honestly I just loved it so much I took the bad with the good. Also, smoke as much as you can in a hit, but don't hit it too quick. By the time you realize the smoke tastes like shit, you're high as fuck, and can hit it again if necessary. You get a tolerance to the smoke but not necessarily the drug.