This is a daily occurrence for me. Anyone else?

my_walls · 1 year

Keldor · 1 year

I sometimes get a sinking feeling in my stomach when I remember something embarrassing or stupid I've done in the past. It's like the feeling you get free falling.

It makes me feel better when I remember the even more stupid things other people have done though.

thenakedandalone · 1 year

On the bright side, chances are nobody remembers it but you.

death_and_reposts · 1 year

Every single day....

rmm45177 · 1 year

Yep. Its almost an obsession.

I can't stop thinking about killing myself.

masmith · 1 year

every night before bed

gngf123 · 1 year

Every day. And the awkward moment is always at least 4 years ago.

summerinthecity · 1 year

basically my life story

crystallic · 1 year

For me it's more of an "I hate my life" thing, but yeah.

Kawadamark1 · 1 year

I will have physical muscle spasms when this happens and say to myself "I fucking hate my life, I wish I was dead". Sometimes I just say it in my head, and sometimes I will whisper it under my breath and hope no one hears me. I have no actually suicidal tenancies, that is just what comes out.

dumbkid · 1 year

At my school a kid was taking a crap, some guys came in and forced him outside, they made him pull his pants down and shit all over the ground whilst singing living on a prayer. They filmed it and put it on the internet. I remember that if I did something embarassing, at least im not that guy.

cntrational · 1 year

All the time, especially when I'm not doing something. Makes it hard to get to sleep. Plus, some of the things I obsess about probably wouldn't be considered embarrassing by anybody else.

kazgur · 1 year

Yep.

p0ison1vy · 1 year

yes , everyday. it gets in the way of being productive. earlier i was cleaning my room and suddenly realized that i had been standing in the middle of my room spaced out for a few minutes, thinking about embarrassing/traumatic things that have happened.

i bet that if i spent less time alone this wouldn't happen so much.

Pannanana · 1 year

Word.

Things that I did 15 years ago make me cringe today.

Mandrake420 · 1 year

I think I must have a black box inside my mind dedicated to recording every awkward moment in my life just to have them played back in a loop when I forget to hate myself.

Sumido · 1 year

Forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for having done that awkward thing when you remember it. If you do it honestly and really forgive yourself, you'll feel better and those thoughts won't come back so often and even if they do, you won't feel so bad. I've been doing it for a few years and it does help.

sparkie_t · 1 year

I remember asking my brother (33 year old) if he felt ashamed about something he did when he was 19 or 20. He responded that this incident would have to get in the queue. Things that had happened when he was just entering teenage life where still the biggest focus of his shame.

I have a list of about 5-10 things that will randomly pop into my head and make me want to cut myself (never do). Sometimes when I do something embarrassing I think 'I wonder if this is going to be on the list in 5 years time?' More often than not it doesn't and I'm back to the old faithful. The times I've embarrassed myself with women. Or the times I've let someone down who was depending on me. The times I behaved badly, or was out of line, or embarrassingly drunk etc....

I must admit that I don't get them as often when I'm exercising and meditating regularly

Maledicte · 1 year

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BigDangDude · 1 year

I get this feeling more when I look back upon I didn't think was embarrassing or rude at the time. Once I reflect on whatever I said or did THEN I want to throw myself off a cliff.

keakealani · 1 year

I remember this kind of feeling. Nowadays it's not usually straight to suicidal, but definitely, recalling those traumas of the past, I've spiraled myself straight from normal to stomach-turning, mind-spinning, unhappy-feeling, etc. In many ways, I think it's the hardest to get out of, because it's like that scene from the movie that plays over and over in your head; except it's you. But I guess it's like everything else, if you acknowledge it, you're that much closer to moving on.

KaptainKnails · 1 year

Mine alternates between, "kill yourself, and KILL THEM" I am in therapy...

villainsz · 1 year

This happens all the time to me as well.

br0ken_ · 1 year

I remember pretty much all of the awkward moments from my whole life; the people involved in them probably don't remember them very much though.

Urgh.

VelvetElvis · 1 year

I just randomly start screaming obscenities. Topamax has helped.

toddlb · 1 year

Thanks, now I have S.O.D. stuck in my head.

midnightauto · 1 year

I used to do this a lot when I was younger. Now days I've realized that this shit is going happen, it happens to everyone so I don't worry about it as much.

Then again the older I get the better I am at avoiding those moments all together.

jedi1354 · 1 year

all the time. i still cant look at my cousin. because when i was 9 and we went out to sushi for my birthday i got embarrassed and went under the table

guywhoishere · 1 year

I more remember stupid ways I have hurt myself, like physically.

Like stretching a bungie cord too much and having it whip back, hit me in the face and break a front tooth.

And just last week I cut my finger quite badly with a saw blade on my dremel (4 stitches, but no permanent damage). I know I will be remembering that one for years.

Frumbot · 1 year

I go through phases of this. Right now, fortunately, I'm just generally lacking the ability to care about anything, but there have certainly been times when my mind has played an endless loop of all my humiliations. But, eh.

KingOfAllBlacks · 1 year

Every fucking day.

susabella · 1 year

Me too, and all I can suggest is that you not dwell on such things and try to let go of that moment. As 311 so mindfully sang: "Sometimes I need reminding/Regret is so blinding/But like I told me, 'Don't Dwell'"

contrarianism · 1 year

Find something constructive to focus on... read a book for example

Pedroptz · 1 year

This is so sad.. This is a cycle of self pity, and it makes me sick, grow the fuck up

Maledicte · 1 year

This seems more angsty than depressed tbh

I mean like whenever I get a paycheck or tuition for a semester of school I always half-heartedly consider buying a cheap handgun, but not at the frequency displayed.

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